Shadow of Fate, Love, and Destiny

4 things about me

2008-04-17T21:27:00.000-07:00

Thanks to Princess for this tag

4 Jobs I've Done:

1. None
2. None
3. Hospital caregiver
4. None

4 Shows on my TiVo/DVR:

1. GKNB
2. wowowie
3. TV patrol NEWS
4. Prison break

4 Places I've Been:

1. Manila
2. Cebu
3. Bohol
4. Hongkong

4 Favorite Foods:

1. Noodled with egg
2. Lumi
3. Pancit canton
4. Sisig

4 CD's Recently Listened To:

1. Nina ( the soul siren)
2. Kyla ( the RNB princess in PI)
3. Sheryl crow
4. Eric Clapton

4 Things You Can Do To Make My Day:

1. TV
2. Internet
3. Taking a bath
4. Checking messages on my Phone

tagging this to Jana, Lourdz and A fil-am Journey

Let me Love you

2008-04-09T05:36:00.000-07:00

Once upon a time, there was once a guy who was very much in love with this girl. This romantic guy folded 1,000 pieces of papercranes as a gift to his girl. Although, at that time he was just a small executive in his company, his future doesn't seemed too bright, they were very happy together. Until one day, his girl told him she was going to Paris and will never come back. She also told him that she cannot visualise any future for the both of them, so let's go their own ways there and then... heartbroken, the guy agreed.

When he regained his confidence, he worked hard day and night, slogging his body and mind just to make something out of himself. Finally with all these hardwork and with the help of friends, this guy had set up his own company...

"You never fail until you stop trying." he always told himself. "I must make it in life!"
One rainy day, while this guy was driving, he saw an elderly couple sharing an umbrella in the rain walking to some destination. Even with the umbrella, they were still drenched. It didn't take him long to realise those were his ex-girlfriend's parents. With a heart in getting back at them, he drove slowly beside the couple, wanting them to spot him in his luxury sedan. He wanted them to know that he wasn't the same anymore, he had his own company, car, condo, etc. He had made it in life!

Before the guy can realise, the couple was walking towards a cemetary,and he got out of his car and followed them...and he saw his ex-girlfriend, a photograph of her smiling sweetly as ever at him from her tombstone... and he saw his precious papercranes in a bottle placed beside her tomb. Her parents saw him. He walked over and asked them why this had happened. They explained, she did not leave for France at all. She was stricken ill with cancer. In her heart, she had believed that he will make it someday, but she did not want her illness to be his obstacle ... therefore she had chosen to leave him.

She had wanted her parents to put his papercranes beside her, because, if the day comes when fate brings him to her again he can take some of those back with him. The guy just wept ...the worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them but knowing you can't have them and will never see them again.
The End."

A tragic story that perhaps happens only in the movies. At the end of the day, money is money is money but love is divine. In our quest for our material wealth, take time to make time for our loved ones. There will be a time when we have only memories to cling to.
Take this weekend to show our "love" to all that are close to us.

Did I marry the right person?

2008-04-02T22:02:00.000-07:00

Just sharing this great post from friendster, hope you'll have time to read this its worth it I swear.

"How do I know if I married the
right person?" I
noticed that there was a Large man
sitting next to her so I said, "It
depends.
Is that your husband?"

In all seriousness, she
answered "How do you know?"
Let me answer this question because
the chances are good that it's
weighing on your mind. Here's the
answer.

EVERY relationship has a cycle. In
the beginning,
you fell in love with your
spouse.

You anticipated their call, wanted
their touch, and
liked their idiosyncrasies.

Falling in love with your spouse
wasn't hard. In
fact, it was a completely natural
and spontaneous experience. You didn't
have
to DO anything. That's why it's
called "falling" in love... because
it's
happening TO YOU.

People in love sometimes say, "I was
swept off my
feet." Think about theimagery of
that expression. It implies that you
were
just standing there; doing
nothing, and then something came along
and happened
TO YOU.

Falling in love is easy. It's a
passive and
spontaneous experience. But after a
few years of marriage, the euphoria of
love
fades. It's the natural cycle of
EVERY relationship. Slowly but surely,
phone calls become a bother (if they
come at all), touch is not always
welcome
(when it happens), and your
spouse's idiosyncrasies, instead of
being cute,
drive you nuts.

The symptoms of this stage vary with
every
relationship, but if you think about
your marriage, you will notice a
dramatic
difference between the initial stage
when you were in love and a much
duller or even angry subsequent
stage. At this point, you and/or your
spouse might start asking, "Did I
marry the right person?" And as you
and your
spouse reflect on theeuphoria of the
love you once had, you may begin to
desire that experience with someone
else.

This is when marriages break down.
People blame their spouse for their
unhappiness and look outside their
marriage for fulfillment.

Extramarital fulfillment comes in
all shapes and sizes. Infidelity is
the most obvious.
But sometimes people turn to work,
church, a hobby, a friendship,
excessive TV, or abusive
substances. But the answer to this
dilemma does NOT lie outside your
marriage.
It lies within it. I'm not saying
that you couldn't fall in love with
someone
else. You could. And TEMPORARILY
you'd feel better. But you'd be in the
same situation a few years later.
Because (listen carefully to this):
The
Key To Succeeding In Marriage Is Not
Finding The Right Person; It's
Learning To Love The Person You
Found!

SUSTAINING love is not a passive or
spontaneous
experience. It'll NEVER just happen
to you. You can't "find" LASTING love.
You
have to "make" it day in and day
out. That's why we have the
expression "the
labor of love."

Because it takes time, effort, and
energy. And most
importantly, it takes WISDOM.. You
have to know WHAT TO DO to make your
marriage work. Make no mistake
about it.

Love is NOT a mystery. There are
specific things you can do (with or
without your spouse) to succeed with
your marriage. Just as there are
physical laws of the universe (such as
gravity), there are also laws for
relationships. Just as the right diet
and
exercise program makes you
physically stronger, certain habits in
your
relationship WILL make your
marriage stronger. It's a direct cause
and effect.
If you know and apply the laws, the
results are predictable. .. you
can "make"
love works. Love in marriage is
indeed a "decision".. . not just a
feeling..

Such Love

2008-03-29T13:29:00.000-07:00

This day isn't that bad at all to me, well my fiance seems not aware that I was a bit upset to him yesterday night cuz he still send those same lines he use to through to me.. So instead of getting upset to him more, I chose not to mind it and just let my feelings go so I wont feel bad thinking about those non sense feeling. Well we have just finished talking tonight and I feel good knowing were OK and that I don't feel upset anymore ohh well such love he he he. But as they always say thats how love make ups their own spices, to always keep the relationship HOT and Exciting.
We talked some stuff about life there and well thats what I have always been waiting for hehehe the talks about "USA". He is now off to computer and playing his bestfriend since birth his GUITAR, and I'm still here blogging lol, I told him I have to so I my visitors have something new to read and that it will help me increase my page rank too hehehe. Thats all I could share today... I'm looking for the brighter side of the clouds now and totally HAPPY...

Stupid feeling

2008-03-28T14:42:00.000-07:00

Uhmmm while writing this entry Ive got tears in my eyes..why? I dont know, am I stupid or what?Well things were like this, my fiance and I used to chat everyday but the thing is when we chat, I always think his busy doing that, doing this, going there and etc. Lately when we chat, we talk about the paper process, exchanging inputs about it all. I knew Ive got more than he knew and the knows that.. I was always hoping that we will talk about everything, about my life there, culture shocks and more, you know i just wanted to learn, theres no way I can learn it from others cuz I will be living with him, everytime i read some couples that are almost being reunited I am always amazed with how excited they are to be together, like they can't wait and everything.. I find it weird with my fiance his less interested? or atleast thats how I feel.. I don't know, i just don't feel good. I know there is no such perfect relationship does this mean this is a normal happening to me??? well yes I hope so!!! I am excited to be with him, living and starting our new life together but I feel soo stupid knowing that his less interested... I understand I am stressing him out because of this f...... papers, well I was stressed by reading those pages online too, he appreciate it that I am putting myself into it.., and I am glad about it.

He is worried that if I am there I always get upset... Its normal to be upset right? I told him when I am upset and let him know the reasons and talk about it....
Thats what I found out lately......

Need some advice from the expert.....

Second Blog

2008-03-28T10:15:00.002-07:00

When I came across with some bloggers site I always wonder how come they got a lot of blogsite but then I realize it's all about earning money, the more blogsite you have the more money and opportunity you will have. So here I go doing my second blog, my first blog is a month older than this one, I also realize that your page must be atleast a month before you'll get an approval from a paying advertisement sites. I remember when I made my first blog and saw some bloggers having fun earning money through advertisement so in my curiosity I submitted my blog though it was 3 days old, the advertisement site sent me some verification and then let me know that I have to wait.. so i waited and there it was a big DENIED word was being flaunted and there I read where and why am I being denied well simply because my page is not yet 1 month old he he he, they said that I can always resubmit it, my other blog is 1 month old now but still hasn't submitted it, but anyway I will someday soon. So this time for this new blog of mine I need to wait for some more months before I can submit this.. This earning through blogging really catch my interest when I knew how big the opps are I was like "what"??? LOL yea I was a bit shock cuz its a big money... I envy those people who got their own domains now but hey Im getting one too not yet but I know its gonna be soon Hollaaaahhh...
Some more months from now, I'll be getting serious on how to make money on blogging, I have to wait till I get to US so I can address everything there, cuz I don't want to address paypal here.
I am as excited as a kid drooling for a lollipop lol, yes im looking forward to the days I got my approval and learn some more stuff about this whole thing.

For those who add this new blog of mine thanks a lot, my blog wouldn't be perfect without linking with you guys... Enjoy blogging...

Who are your ocean 11?

2008-03-27T21:23:00.000-07:00

Thank you Ellen for tagging me.

Name 11 people you can think of right off the top of your head. Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 11 people. This is a lot funnier if you actually randomly list the names first.. No cheating.

1. Dean
2. Sosy
3. Rob
4. Richard
5. Jenny
6. Marvin
7. Ann
8. Jo
9. Che-che
10. Louie
11. Eddie

Now, it's time to answer the following questions:

HOW DID YOU MEET #4?
Richard, we met through a friend named jhan.

WHAT WOULD YOU DO WITHOUT # 6?
duhhh puppy love lol, past tense ha ha ha.

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF #2 AND # 6 WERE GOING OUT?
Sosy & Marvin, hmmm shocks lol as in hehehe sosy is my bestfriend and marvin was some part of my past hahaha, I don't think i will be okay if they will go out cuz marvin is already married duhhh and my bestfriend have bf too.

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF #5 CONFESSED HE/SHE LOVES YOU ?
Jenny, LOL were friends I don't think she will confess hahaha were good friends you know.

WHO'S #10'S BEST FRIEND?
Louie, thats my nephew i would guess who is his best friend i think its his classmate ;)

HAVE YOU EVER EATEN AROUND #1?
LOL yes ofcourse his my honey.

DO YOU MISS #2?
Yes I missed hanging out with her, shes in CDO now.

WHO IS #11 DATING
Eddie, that's my bf's best friend. I dont think his dating...

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF #3?
Rob, His fine.. some part of my past lol we were MU before I met my fiancee ;) his from australia I think his already married.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF #9?
Che-che, my niece shes kinda PUNK and EMO, shes weird LOL.

WHAT WOULD U DO IF #4 AND #7 WERE DATING?
Richard and Ann, nyahahaha richard is my gay friend and ann is my friend I can't imagine if they'll go out together eww lol.

WHO DOES #2 LIKE?
Sosy likes her BF jumar ofcourse ;)

WOULD YOU MARRY #8?
LOL, NO nyahahaha, shes my friend her husband will kill me if im gonna marry her ha ha ha.

DO YOU LOVE #10?
Yes Louie is my nephew i love him...

EVER SLEPT IN THE SAME ROOM AS ANY OF THE NUMBERS?
Yes ofcourse lol that isn't new at all ssshhh. he he he

I tag this to Laura

heartily dedicated to me...

2008-03-27T20:57:00.000-07:00

This is a song that my fafalicious dean made for me.... Everytime I read this one, all the memories we had shared is flashing back eh.. this is SWEET.. he made this almost 3 years ago, time flies really fast...

Lorenn 98

I know a love like this will never happen again in my life
I give you my blood, my thirst, for you to be my wife
I give you my words on paper I rhyme
there yours to keep till the end of time

Your voice is my lighthouse taking me from darkness
Speaking words of compassion and gentle kindness
Your voice carried a magical vibration
That sent me into an emotional sensation

On a desert island, i took your hand
Kissed you on island of the white sand
On top You covered me with your hair
What's mine is yours now we both share

Lorenn 98 gave her love to me
Forever In your heart I will Be
Holding you in my arms Forever
Being your first and only Lover

There's light in the beauty of your smile
It surround me with your gracious style
Better than a thousand painted sunsets
Your Heart fills my love with out regrets

Swimming in the rivers of your glory
Is my life's greatest untold story
Laughing ,touching,,naked and bare
These are the secrets we both now share

Let's not have the tangled webs of a spider
We will talk it out with words for the better
Make everyday happy like a Holiday
Were each others reward for are pay

Lorenn 98 gave her love to me
Forever In your heart I will Be
Holding you in my arms Forever
Being your first and only Lover

You're Brown skin coconut body
Moves the reef's and tides within me
Surround me with your mountains and streams
Its your heart that fills all of my unfound dreams.....

It is Lorenn98 because that was my yahoo id when we first met online, he made notes to that which he records all by himself and put it on cd.

Places that we have been...

2008-03-27T14:40:00.000-07:00

Iligan city is a highly urbanized city in the province of Lanao del Norte and the province's former capital. It is approximately 795 kilometers southeast of Manila. According to the 2000 census, it has a population of 410,058 people in 57,179 households.
When I was 15 year old and brought by my aunt in this place to live with them I knew it in myself that my luck was here, that this place will be my home away from home, And yes it is living here for almost 5 years now is sooo great, this place has been my album of life, I've gained a lot of friends here, I was warmed welcomed by my relatives when I first stepped my foot in this place, just imagine I am not anymore living with my real family and that I have to live with my other extended family, I wonder how I handled it well. I was away from the one I love I like and beeing deprived by those things I had when I was still in BUUG. But still I am thankful that I had made the right decision to live here cuz if not the one you knew now could never be her. I love iligan and will cherish it forever.

Camiguin Island is a pear-shaped volcanic island with a total land area of 238 sq. kilometers. It lies 10 kilometers off the coast of the Province of Misamis Oriental. I was in camiguin 3 years ago, It was January 2005 when I first went there with my fiance and my bestfriend, we visited a lot of tourist spots such as Old Ruins church of san roque church, convent and belfry this place is so mysterious as I can see those old stuff in there, Sunken Cemetery, I have not really touch the cross itself I can feel there's a lot of history behind it, Katibawasan Falls, A beautiful, clear stream of water cascading 70 meters into a rock pool surrounded by ground orchids, wild ferns, trees and boulders. Its cold water provides a refreshing summer splash to all vacationers, Ardent Hot Spring In the heart of the island bubbles this mineral pool with water is great for relaxing your body, Sto. Niño Cold Spring It has a terrific huge pool of cold spring water, White Island an isolated white sandbar where the view of towering Mt. Hibok-Hibok and Old Volcan, Mt. Ilihan There, one can see bluish green ridge of mountains and majestic slopes as he recites his Stations of the Cross its splendid beauty is very touching. At the pinnacle, climbers can peacefully camp and take pleasure in unbothered world.Those were the places we went during our escapades at camiguin island 3 years ago.

Bantayan Island the shining tropical paradise in Asia is commonly known as an island paradise in Philippines, with its fine white sand and crystal clear blue waters... It was summer of 2005 when I and my fiance went there after our engagement, the first night we stayed at Budyong beach which is really nice and that they had their own fantastic views from our own rented hut. The second night we transfer to Marlin beach club which I believe is it more romantic and more safe place to stay at we stayed there for a week and we really had a great time together, It was like our advance honeymoon lol. The beach were awesome, food is great, staff are friendly just almost soo perfect.

Cagayan de oro city a so called "golden city of friendship" that lies along the northern coastline of Mindanao. It is the provincial capital of the province of Misamis Oriental and the regional center for Northern Mindanao. I have been to this place not so many times but I like it, I like the way people treat you with their undying smiles, CDO is 1 and a half hours by bus from where I live in iligan, I usually go here when I am meeting my fiance since we dont have an airport and CDO is the closest airport in iligan city. I have found friends from here that are very nice and warm hearted. If I would be given a chance to live in another city I would choose Cagayan de oro city.

Cebu City is the capital of cebu in the Philippines and is the second most important metropolitan center in the country. The city lies on the eastern shore of the island of Cebu and is the first Spanish settlement in the country, I had been to cebu many times ofcourse with my fiance Dean we want it there,fresh air and good people around. We can do a lot of things just around the city and with out even going outside in it, its been our home away from home if were on our yearly vacation,I love their city life,this place is just too COOL.

Bohol Island is the main island of Bohol Province in theVisayas. It lies southeast from Cebu island across cebu strait (in some references called Bohol Strait) and southwest from leyte island, separated by the Camotes sea and Cannigao channel. It was June of 2006 when we went there, we had fun and great adventures from their tourist destinations. We went and see Chocolate Hills, Loboc River with their floating restaurants they have great foods there, we saw the smallest primate the "tarsier" and had a great time staying in PANGLAO island.I really do wish to go there again.

Manila is the capital of the Philippines and one of the cities that make up the greater metropolitan area of Metro Manila. The first time I was in manila was January of 2005, at first I felt like I am too small for this big city but then I got used to it and to everything thats going on around. Actually I dont really like manila that much since I hate smokes, and I am not really into a busy city. Its very HOT there also . Just last year I was there but still nothing has change infact it gets really smuggy. I'd probably chose to live in a province than to live in manila....

Boracay is a tropical island. It is one of the country's most popular tourist destinations, White Beach is the main tourism beach. It is a bit over four kilometers long and is lined with resorts, hotels, lodging houses, restaurants, and other tourism-related businesses. In the central portion, for about two kilometers, there is a footpath known as the Beachfront Path separating the beach itself from the establishments located along it. Last summer was awesome because we hop in boracay for a whole week and whew for me it was like a dream come true to be there, with those very fine white sand and clear blue water its totally a paradise. How I wish boracay is close to where I live so I can always have fun and relax in such paradise. It's a very romantic place, we have seen the sunrise and the sunsets and WOW its brilliant.

A so called destiny....

2008-03-27T14:07:00.000-07:00

Once upon a time there was this young lady chatting and just exploring on the net had met a man that turn out to be her soon to be husband.....

A night before this man's departure for his 2nd visit to the beautiful island the Philippines, he met this young lady @ filipinaheart, he started talking to her, sharing thoughts, ideas and experiences about his last visit in the Philippines, and this man shared something to her about his present relationship that it wasn't doing good at that time, actually thats why he bought a trip to PI just to see that girl but suddenly things have gone wrong between him and her that they had both decided to call if off, so this guy still pursue his trip no matter what, he does not care if he can't meet anyone he just want a trip... but things have gone really nice and that he met me just right before his departure for PI, we were friends at that time.

And then, the next thing I knew the morning i woke up was his in PI already and trying to make contacts with me, so then he asked for my personal numbers and ofcourse I did gave it, and for the first time I heard his voice on phone and its like WOW there must be something in this guy because I can feel something I can hardly explained, he called me like every 2 hours checking if Im doing fine, what I am doing at that time, where will I go, what was my plan, he just showed too much interest on me which I also noticed. And to think he does not even see my face on cam but he saw me on picture I was really wondering why is this man put so much interest in a girl that hides from a picture...

Then he decided to take a visit on my place well thats what he said that he'll take a look at our city and see if he will like it and from that very moment I was really nervous, anxious and other feeling's that I can't explain...

December 28, 2004 he has booked a ticket from MNL-CDO, It was funny because I did not want to meet him at the airport thinking his not gonna be there, and that I have no money to spend for the fare and other expenses though he told me he'll pay me back but still I did not went there. So I let my aunt call him and sketch to him the whole ride from CDO airport to Iligan Bus Terminal, and Thanks God he arrived safe I met him with my aunt's company, at first we dont talk too much to each other but all we knew was those silence moments were golden and precious. At the first day he ask me for a french kiss and I gave him that.... ;)

The next day I transfer him to a more nicer hotel with reasonable price, I stayed with him ( with my bestfriend) we get to know each other, talk a lot, laugh a lot, joke a lot and had fun with each others company...

A week has passed when we decided to go for an escapade to Camiguin and there we really had a good and great times, great memories, precious moments with each others. Time had gone soo fast when we were together that he has to go home, I was with him at the airport in MNL and I cried to death when I saw him walking in the isle going inside the airport lobby thats when I knew and proved to myself that I Love the man who left me with tears at the airport. LOL.

When he got home, we started chatting atleast 5 times a week since I was still in school and had no chance to go for chatting in the city, he calls me atleast 3 times a week and those feelings of wanting to hear him always made me realize I am surely and madly inlove with this stranger man I just met. The first time we met we were not yet committed it was the second time we met that we finally took the three letter word Y-E-S to each other.

December 2004 when we met online & met personally, and May 2005 when we met for the 2nd time and I said Y-E-S to his question "will you marry me?". May 2006 when we met for the 3rd time and May 2007 for the 4rth meeting, and hopefully by MAY this year I will see him again if Godswill were getting married by then...

ooopps sorry this has no ending....