Stupid feeling

Uhmmm while writing this entry Ive got tears in my eyes..why? I dont know, am I stupid or what?Well things were like this, my fiance and I used to chat everyday but the thing is when we chat, I always think his busy doing that, doing this, going there and etc. Lately when we chat, we talk about the paper process, exchanging inputs about it all. I knew Ive got more than he knew and the knows that.. I was always hoping that we will talk about everything, about my life there, culture shocks and more, you know i just wanted to learn, theres no way I can learn it from others cuz I will be living with him, everytime i read some couples that are almost being reunited I am always amazed with how excited they are to be together, like they can't wait and everything.. I find it weird with my fiance his less interested? or atleast thats how I feel.. I don't know, i just don't feel good. I know there is no such perfect relationship does this mean this is a normal happening to me??? well yes I hope so!!! I am excited to be with him, living and starting our new life together but I feel soo stupid knowing that his less interested... I understand I am stressing him out because of this f...... papers, well I was stressed by reading those pages online too, he appreciate it that I am putting myself into it.., and I am glad about it.

He is worried that if I am there I always get upset... Its normal to be upset right? I told him when I am upset and let him know the reasons and talk about it....
Thats what I found out lately......

Need some advice from the expert.....

Second Blog

When I came across with some bloggers site I always wonder how come they got a lot of blogsite but then I realize it's all about earning money, the more blogsite you have the more money and opportunity you will have. So here I go doing my second blog, my first blog is a month older than this one, I also realize that your page must be atleast a month before you'll get an approval from a paying advertisement sites. I remember when I made my first blog and saw some bloggers having fun earning money through advertisement so in my curiosity I submitted my blog though it was 3 days old, the advertisement site sent me some verification and then let me know that I have to wait.. so i waited and there it was a big DENIED word was being flaunted and there I read where and why am I being denied well simply because my page is not yet 1 month old he he he, they said that I can always resubmit it, my other blog is 1 month old now but still hasn't submitted it, but anyway I will someday soon. So this time for this new blog of mine I need to wait for some more months before I can submit this.. This earning through blogging really catch my interest when I knew how big the opps are I was like "what"??? LOL yea I was a bit shock cuz its a big money... I envy those people who got their own domains now but hey Im getting one too not yet but I know its gonna be soon Hollaaaahhh...
Some more months from now, I'll be getting serious on how to make money on blogging, I have to wait till I get to US so I can address everything there, cuz I don't want to address paypal here.
I am as excited as a kid drooling for a lollipop lol, yes im looking forward to the days I got my approval and learn some more stuff about this whole thing.

For those who add this new blog of mine thanks a lot, my blog wouldn't be perfect without linking with you guys... Enjoy blogging...